I was on the bus going to my last day of work before heading off to Dubai for my summer vacation. It was beginning of June, and even though it was early morning, all of a sudden I started feeling really hot. I broke out in sweat – literally. I felt my hijab slowly soak up and felt sweat dripping down my back. The bus was packed and I had no space to move. I was getting nauseous and had the sudden urge to throw up. My heart started pacing faster and I was debating whether or not to get off the bus and go to the timmies coming up. I knew I would be late to the staff meeting but I didn’t care. I got off the bus, ran over to Tim Hortons and threw up in their dirty public washroom stalls. I took an Uber to work, a complete mess and super late to our meeting. As I was rushing to the staff room from my classroom, I ran into my VP and explained what happened. Her response? “Oh, you must be pregnant!” Haha, yeah right. Right?!?
I woke up earlier than usual on Sunday. I don’t know why but I hadn’t been feeling like myself. My period wasn’t due for another day or two, so I wasn’t worried, but there was just something that didn’t feel normal. I decided to take a pregnancy test, because why not? (Tip – keep an extra one at home just so it’s there when you need it). I sat there waiting for the result – I waited and waited, or so it seemed because those short few minutes felt like an hour. And then I saw it, as clear as two straight lines can be – I was pregnant.
It’s hard for me to put into words what went through my mind at that point. But if you know me well, you’ll know that when I’m scared or panicked, I freeze. Like actually, literally freeze. My mind goes blank and my body doesn’t move, and that’s how I reacted. I froze. Until Nahyan came knocking on the bathroom door because he had to pee 😛
I didn’t want to tell him right away, I wanted it to be a little special. But I also knew I couldn’t wait too long because I can’t keep secrets from my bestie. So I went outside, hiding the pregnancy test and quickly set up my camera to record his reaction. I put the pregnancy test in an envelope, wrote a little note for daddy-to-be and waited. When he came out, it went something like this…
I present to you the 5 stages of finding out you’re expecting:
Stage 1 – Ignorance
Stage 2 – Shock
Stage 3 – Fear
Stage 4- Overwhelm
Stage 5 – Acceptance
P.s. we did take a blood test the next day to confirm 🙂
P.P.S. That next day also happened to be my flight to go to Dubai to visit my family! I decided to keep it a secret until I got there and to surprise them with the news.